It seemed to me that Terrence McKenna really had something there with his Temporal Resonance Theory, at least from my own perspective. Indeed, things really seemed to be accelerating toward some kind of Cosmic Collision at least in terms of my own life. All things would be hyper-interconnected at the Zero point of the Time-Wave Continuum, December 21st, 2012, and passing that point would be a transformation so profound, it would mean "the end of History" according to McKenna. He didn't say "End Of The World", which made it more believable to me. So there was no massive Earthquake/Tsunami causing "The Earth Changes". No collapse of the US Economy (not yet, anyway). No Rogue Nation setting off a nuclear device and World War Three. No revelation that Aliens have been engineering our Evolution and our Society for Millennia. No implosion of The Milky Way. No Zombie Apocalypse. No Apocalypse...
From my standpoint, I almost wished for one or more of these things to happen--to shake things up. I was locked in a lot of waiting, a lot of "riding it out" as the day approached, and some kind of massive change might have been a welcome thing in my book. Let's see, I was nineteen in seniority away from being laid off from my job. This scenario caused extreme anxiety as I grappled with the prospect of a very uncertain 2013, and the choice of taking a severance package that might have led to a nice winter off from working outside in the elements, followed by the very real uncertainty of finding a new job. When I considered leaving this Hell-Hole, I was filled with inner Peace and optimism of finding a real career that I would (Heaven forbid) actually enjoy, but it always came back to the fact that it was very risky and I have a family to support. It felt like being denied parole.
Pediddleville is not far from Newtown, Connecticut, where one of the most awful things in History just recently occurred. That one certainly played into the sinking feeling, as if the psycho killer was trying to accelerate his own twisted version of End-Times. It certainly doesn't at this point seem like it will enact positive change, just more debate and obfuscation leading to an impasse...
Let's not forget the extremely weird Presidential race we endured this year. This shameful spectacle we had to witness only reinforced the notion that we were heading toward Doom, especially if Romney was going to be elected. I've said before that a CEO is no more trustworthy than your garden-variety junkie street hustler, and with the machinations at hand--Fox News Propaganda Machine, Super-PAC money, The Koch Brothers and other sinister tycoons, Gerrymandering and Karl Rove, and knowing of past voting machine shenanigans--I was convinced that Romney was going to win. Even though the campaign the Republicans ran on was offensive to the extreme for most people regardless of Race or economics, I was convinced he was going to win. It was very discouraging, because Greed and Racism, in my book, are always, ultimately, supposed to be defeated.
Even Obama's win has not been uplifting, as the Nation now battles this "fiscal cliff" debate. It's the same old cluster-fuck that plagued the Election cycle. A good old Tabula Rasa might have been better.
On other fronts, I have been plagued by car problems, money problems, motivational problems, Time-management problems, to the point that I have felt debilitated by it. Christmas didn't and doesn't ever, help. I have the same old New Year's resolutions, left over from last year to try to tackle, and right about now, I'm just not feeling it. What I feel now, after the Zero date, is not so much inspiration or a sense of something new beginning, but a very flat, stagnant feeling. Fuck it. Just move on. Yeah, that's the ticket. That great new career will just drop into your lap. Or the bastards will have a change of heart and suddenly start being nice to you. Oh Yes...
So, far from the 2012 thing being a new start, it feels like the most nothing of nothings has actually happened. Salmon River flowing nicely now as my fish enjoy another easy winter. Pediddleville 2013.
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